Craig Howarth gives his account

We have been trying to get stories out of the original 18 people declared at the end of October. It’s a funny thing, when people are kicked out of the church, they tend to get on with their lives so corralling these stories has been a bit of fun. 

But Craig has given us a fairly detailed account of his experience in Durban. 

We gave up trying to get a picture from Craig but he did supply us with the illustration you see here.  He sent it to a fellow staff member when she was ill and not in the org. It’s pretty funny!

Grab a cup of coffee and settle in. It’s a good one. 

wish you were hereHere is a time-track summary of my adventures in the Durban org, before and after I returned from my PTS/SP Specialist course. Note that there are really only two senior SO members that I name who acted suppressively and influenced the whole of African Scientology at the time. I have a lot of friends still in the SO and management and I don’t hold anything against them, and I do still care about them. There are full specifics on these events but I’m not going into them here. The illustration above is a “Get Well” card I sent to the Snr C/S during our time on staff.

I started my Scientology career in 1993 after receiving Dianetics (Book one) Auditing from my FSM at the time. I experienced massive change in my life from its application, and promised myself that I would help others with this new tool. So off I went to the Durban org and learned how to do Dianetics auditing and got to work helping others.

In 1997 I decided to join staff because I felt a sense of duty, not because I really wanted to. I had decided earlier whilst doing Dianetics that I wanted to be a C/S and signed up as the Snr C/S to go Flag for training.

I gave up a career as an Architect working with another property developer at the time. I gave up my sport and outdoor activities of which I was so fond, and threw myself fulltime into being a staff member. I was going to make this place Saint Hill size and make LRH proud……….all gullible, green and with a sign on my back saying “kick me” 
Once on staff, I was convinced by CO FOLO Ken Krieger that being a Snr C/S was not the right thing to do, He wanted an ED for Durban. I really did not want to do this but thought that this must be the kind of personal sacrifice one makes for LRH, so I started internship under Ken Krieger, doing all the exec posts on the org board ending up at Div 6, where I somehow remained.

I really worked Div 6 as the PES, and felt I was going to help as many people in as I could. I held weekend Dianetics Seminars, sold hundreds of books, called people in, gave evening lectures, audited new public and taught others to audit and so on. I have a really great list of some of the miracles that occurred during these times.

During this time things were getting out-pointy, then in 1999 the real shit started, Ken left Durban without warning and phoned me from JHB to tell me that I was now the ED. My first job was to pay the backlogged rent and other expenses. Together with the OES Cameron Wannenburg we collected enough money from training sales to pay all the bills, which was promptly taken by the CLO to cover a criminal activity they had committed earlier…….not paying their taxes.

There were more incidents and I became very unhappy in my state of “clay pigeonness” (not realizing the signs of severe suppression) and decided in Dec 1999 to go to the “Millenium 2000” event in LA and attend the ED conference. There I felt I could get some real help…God help me.

I arrived in LA and attended the ED Conference. I was immediately summoned to one side by a little CMO drone to see the CO of the Management bunch there. She started to accuse me of all sorts of crimes. I told her I didn’t have these crimes and wasn’t sure what she was referring to but she started shouting telling me that she was going to find my crimes. I surprised myself and screamed back at her to back off. She actually flinched backwards not expecting retaliation, but I was hauled away by the CMO and Sec Checked. They could find nothing of value. These twits ran this for a week as I reported to the Int Management building each day.

Whist on board the Mother ship in LA writing a report on the computer, I could hear the different CMO staff (young 15 and 16 year old girls) swearing and screaming at each other. I saw a SO fellow of about 40 being told to “Fuck Off” and being degraded by these CMO girls. I could hear in the background, staff talking the biggest load of rubbish about their posts, and I realized these “highly revered Int Management staff” were stupid and out of character. I’m sure some of the more senior types had some brains and I recall in particular the Qual Sec Int being a very lovely being (I really hope she got out of there unscathed).

I was with Durban DSA in LA at this event and I confided in her that the Int Management treatment was like the Gestapo. I found out later that she wasn’t my friend at all and was only too happy to report me to Death Battalion HQ in SA.

When I returned to South Africa, I had a fresh view on the way things really are. I was intercepted at the airport by a CLO terminal and was told that I was not allowed to go home to Durban but to report to the CLO. I remained at the CLO, and was interrogated (Sec Checked) for two months, to find my crimes and I was later summoned to a Comm EV by Bokkelman. The CO OSA was the Chairman and they held what could only be described as a Kangaroo Court. The findings were predetermined. I was an SP obviously, I had called that jolly band of cut-throats at Int Management “ the Gestapo”. I realized that I had been screwed royally and betrayed big time.

They did not want a decent human being, being effective at helping others. I was shown the findings (SP Declare) by Bokkelman (who looked at me with that “Alien Grey” look) and told me that I had been declared an SP………..but (in hushed tones of concern) told me that he was going to help me. If I did the ethics program set out, he would use his powers to lift my declare. I violated my personal integrity right there and went along with the progam. I returned to Durban org as the Public Reg as It was determined that I was not fit to be an executive any more. However I continued to help others regardless, the title changed nothing.

A year later, 2001, I agreed to go to Flag for the PTS/SP training as an Ethics Officer. Here they made a grave mistake, I returned with armour piercing ammunition and was no longer a clay pigeon.

October 2001 I take on the post of Ethics Officer Durban Day and run all of HCO. I startedto recruit, get files in order and became a terminal for many public who needed my help. I recruited about 25 staff, from new public.

November 2001 LC AF (Bokkelman) comes down and places a very PTS and very unqualled person in Treasury . He also recruits an LC for Durban from the public. The public (name withheld) was so unqualified it was suppressive. He was temporarily on post (2 hrs/day for 3 days/week). He was instructed by LC AF to secretly investigate and report on the Snr C/S Shirley Wartski at the time for “unknown reasons”.

April 2002 CLO AF drone arrives on a mission “with orders from Flag” – Turns out per documents found that it was not a Flag mission but a CLO AF covert investigation of the Snr C/S and other key staff which just enturbulated the org environment. In fairness the person concerned apologises later.

The DSA double agent Durban Day tells me that she is quietly investigating the Snr C/S and reporting up-lines.

May 2002 I recruit two staff for Treasury and the TTC. LC AF swoops down and by-passes the org, stealing the two staff for LC’s and takes them to the CLO. This obviously didn’t work out and the org had to cover the cost of the crime financially.

September 2002 LC AF and CO FOLO Ken Krieger come to steal the ED Durban Day for a post in Johannesburg. They try talking the Academy sup into becoming the ED. They try to talk the PES into becoming the Sup. Org staff oppose this per policy but are accused of “CI to Management Strategy”

2003 During 2003 the CLO was sucking up to COB trying to make the Jobur’ org Ideal. Durban org staff were left alone to get on with things. Durban staff recruited and hatted staff (20 – 25 staff at any time). The Durban org became solvent, all debts paid up and all staff were receiving pay. CCRDs were being delivered and the stats were climbing. An ANZO crew came around and commented how theta and great our org was.

December 2003 Bokkelman, Kreiger and another arrive at the org and brief me about how the Snr C/S is “downtone: and natter about the ED. I am told that the Snr C/S is probably not Clear. They make no comment on how well the org is doing.

January 2004 Bokkelman’s flying saucer lands in our car park without warning. He creates complete and total havoc with our theta org, crashed all our stats, particularly the cash/bills and put us in debt again. He falsified recruitment stats, wrote KR’s on all the key staff for not “expanding”. He called key staff into HCO separately and deliberately 3p’d them against each other. For two months he smashed what we had built up and ruined the credibility of the HCO and Execs. Other staff fled the org. The Snr C/S and ED are told covertly that they are to “watch out for the E/O (me)” as I had the majority of SP traits. When I try to handle this with the ED I am accused of Black PR by Bokkelman. Bokkelman uses the orgs facilities to fake his mission and runs up a telephone bill of R28000 (usually R4000 pm). The org empties out. It should be noted that Bokkelman was most likely sent by “someone” who was so covert he escaped accusation.

February 2004 The org has fallen behind in rent and telephone bills and the usual flaps are in full swing. The ED was at the time selling services to overseas public but was ordered to stop by the CLO. The CLO then took all the prospects for themselves for the “Continental Org Joburg”

April 2004 An entheta and external influence in the public is caught squirrelling heavily. He is given a program by the Snr C/S and myself, which he refuses to do and is also vetoe’d by the LC AF. This public has money and promises to buy a mission. He, and his right hand man are very enturbulating and express that they are going to compete with the org. LC AF is using their car for personal transport and gives them a copy of a report on the Snr C/S and myself to discredit us.

May 2004 The ED is pressured by LC AF and CO FOLO to let the Academy Sup go to the SO. She is replaced by a criminal and the academy collapses. She and her husband leave the SO within 4 months due to out-quals.The entheta external influence mentioned above becomes worse and E/O sends a Non-Enturbulation order to the LC AF for approval. This is unacknowledged and it is discovered that this public’s right hand man is being recruited as the LC for Durban.

September 2004 The Sup returns to Durban after leaving the SO and completes her contract. After her contract is up she writes a non standard KR on the key staff as part of her conditions handling with the LC AF. She had been gathering data and reporting on the Durban staff. The rent is backlogged for 6 months.
The ED reports to the CLO for “cramming”. She returns and immediately is in violent conflict with the Snr C/S. The org is enturbulated and I do a 3P handling, and the CO FOLO is discovered as the item, the conflict disappears and the org calms down.

March 2005 SO Mission comes to handle LRH event. By passes ED in treasury and steals the money for the event leaving nothing for rent. This is too much for the ED and she leaves. I end up taking on all functions.The org has been decimated and has no more money or staff but the CLO post a FBO, D/FBO and an LC (all SO network staff) – No use to anybody but the stat pusher who posted them.

April 2005 The newly posted LC starts to run the org getting her orders from LC AF at the CLO. She is also a green staff member and creates havoc.
The other SO network staff are following their own orders from their separate seniors at the CLO. The org is literally being run by 3 separate terminals at the CLO who are not even aware of each other’s orders.

June 2005 I am caught up in all the functions of the org whilst trying to service the public. The network staff have orders to only do functions for their posts.There is no academy supervisor. (CLO took a trained sup to be the BSO to during the materials evolution). The FOLO refuses to let her work as a Supervisor. He would rather have an empty academy than no book seller.

August 2005 CO OSA approaches myself (PES/EO/dogsbody/cook and bottlewasher) and tells me that there is an SP in the org intimating that it is the Snr C/S, and that I am being duped by said SP and should give him all the data I have on the “SP”. Note, they know that the Snr C/S and myself are close friends. I basically tell him to fuck off.

Sept 2005 By this stage the org is squashed but I find a gap in the madness and start running an outflow and book sales progam. I start a call-in of new public and get the BIS stat to rise. A management terminal comes to the org and is caught stealing my PC folder from the Snr C/S office. She puts it back but is caught again taking photographs of the worksheets.

Jan 2006 I detect telexes on the system that are directed at the Snr C/S alleging that she is out-ethics. No reports or specifics. I also discover that a Comm Ev had been covertly convened on the Snr C/S. This is queried and does not go ahead. The only reason given for the Comm Ev was “the org and stuff”. At this point I noticed my ethics folder has been removed.

April 2006 LC AF and FR come to Durban and bypasses and musical chair all the staff around. New flavour of the month is that Div 6 sups are needed. Now the BSO is put on Div 6 sup post, the original sup I had since personally recruited is given to Foundation. A Foundation staff member (who does not qual for staff) is sent to Day to be the BSO. The Sup is sent to Flag and we are left without a Supervisor again.

I have no option but to keep an eye on the course room and maintain the students I had built up. In fact the stats started to rise.

Snr C/S and myself plan out, promote and start a workshop per LRH for new public during the week involving TRs and basic auditing. This proves to be a success and the course room fills up with upstat new public. The car park at any one time had Porches, landcruisers and other high income vehicles owned by the public we had attracted.
Snr C/S and myself start to receive Knowledge Reports from various terminals at the CLO. Even from terminals we hardly knew. The reports were just the usual faultfinding garbage.

Eight of the main old time public are invited for a source briefing at the LRH house. Contrary to what was promised by the LC AF, this turns out to be a crush recruitment action. They are threatened that data could be found on any of them for which they could be declared suppressive. They return to Durban with bad indicators and were too afraid to write a report.

May 2006 The rent was backlogged again and I had to drop all successful public service actions to keep the doors open. Fortunately a couple of decent guys from the CLO show up to help with the rent flap and I get the stats up. Mission leaves taking the D/FBO with them. The only staff left is myself, the Snr C/S and the unqualified BSO.

August 2006 The D/FBO now back at the CLO bypasses me and writes a letter to Durban org’s bank for an inter-account transfer to take money for CLO commissions. No correct procedure or statements or allocation, and between the CLO and the CPLO nearly R40000 was whipped directly out of our account.

October 2006 A SO Flag Rep is posted in Durban to make sure the 3 remaining staff members do all their insane management programs and spend their time doing compliance reports.

November 2006 A CLO terminal takes one of our public from Europe, covertly regges him at an exchange rate of 10 – 1. This is so that he pays easily as he gets his intensives really cheaply. Not only does this service have to be delivered by a Flag Trained Class VI Snr C/S, but all the money from this is taken from Durban by the CLO for their overt products.

I receive a call from the CO ABLE telling me to report for my Comm Ev within 48 hours. I have no knowledge of this action and have not even received a Bill of Particulars or any prior ”justice action”. The Comm Ev was secretly being convened by the LC AF.

December 2006 The Comm Ev is held in Johannesburg and I am shown the crimes for which I am accused. They also bring in a 1m high (no exaggeration) stack of covert reports that I had never received accusing me of every evil doing imaginable. 10 Crimes, 6 High Crimes including additional destructive actions I was allegedly involved in. The Comm Ev took about 3 – 4 full days. During this time they continue to send out interrogs to the Durban public and staff to find more data on me that would incriminate me. This was used to discredit me in the eyes of the public that trusted me, but this backfired as the public wrote complimentary and validating reports about my actions in Durban and how grateful they were for the help I’d given them. There were about 2 cowards that wrote critical reports. Needless to say the interrogs were quickly destroyed.

It turns out the real reason for the Comm Ev was to shut me up. I had written too many “Orders, Queries Of” and KRs on the insane actions.

LC AF sends myself and the Snr C/S a Christmas Card with the words “Dear Craig and Shirley,Thank you for what you are doing to keep Durban org there. To a fresh new start in 2007. ARC LC AF”

January 2007 I returned to Durban and remained on staff even though my contract had expired 3 months prior. I always felt a strong sense of loyalty to LRH and felt that I could not abandon my promise, so whilst waiting for the findings of the Comm Ev I got busy helping again. However I continued to receive threats from the LC AF as he told me and other staff that I was going to be declared and that he was going to make sure of that.
I was being harassed and opposed so much and the local findings basically stated that I was so evil that I was to be given a heavy ethics program or declared suppressive. I was three months over my second five year contact and felt that this was not a group I wanted to belong to. I did a full Staff Leaving Sec Check FPRD style.

I put together a full comprehensive report on all the above activities including stats and affidavits and sent it off to International Justice Chief for review. I posted it to a friend in LA who delivered it for me.

All my stress about being declared suddenly left me, I had a realisation that I would rather die being me, at the bottom of the Bridge, than be a coward going OT in fear and ignorance

Two years later in 2009 My findings from IJC were finally out. LC AF was removed from post and had to personally tell me that he had been wrong and that the Comm Ev was squashed. Bokkelman was never the sharpest pencil in the box and I think he was being controlled by Krieger, who is too cowardly to be visibly active and overt in these matters. I realized had spent most of my 10 years on staff sidestepping the bullets and outsmarting these two nitwits so I could successfully help my fellow man.

November 2013 I am now a declared Suppressive Person and one of the Joburg 18 …… and only because I let them.

These are only some of the incidents, but I really just want to demonstrate the level of utter madness that goes on as the norm in the orgs. I am not vengeful or bitter at my experiences and know that most of the staff at the different management levels are just PTS, even Bokkelman in his blunderings. I believe Krieger is also being controlled. I would also like to say that I’m no angel and I’m sure I wasn’t the best staff member either, but I know what my true intentions are.
Thank You for reading my story

54 thoughts on “Craig Howarth gives his account

  1. A very enlightening story.
    At its heart lies non standard Scientology. There is an exact Tech of doing things. Int management under DM Despicable Me ( Despicable for having had the tech in his hands but, unfortunately can’t duplicate, must be illiterate and is a knows best Squirrel) is a mess of alter-is and technical degrades. Thus confusion is fed downwards.

    At Sea Org level, valuable and good staff are neutralized by the failure to brief the team. This routinely takes place because security is long gone. It is no longer the dedicated team LRH envisioned and put there while he was running things. Today it is every man for themselves. Each staff member stands naked and alone. The structure of policy and tech which holds the form of the organization together has been undermined and broken by a hundred million white lies and reasonableness about alterations to Standard Tech. This then creates an operating environment where anything goes. Criminals who are unqualified to hold executive posts are holding the senior positions. This is allowed because each administrative area is allowed to be run by a clique. The clique sets and makes the policy so long as it complies with the general or specific confusion generated by Int .
    As you can see by my comments I am guilty of many high crimes and am therefore a Suppressive Person. For a time a struggled with this because I had to clear up the confusion of games and arrive at what is true for me. The real LRH tech applied 100 % gives fantastic wins and gains in every area, to my personal experience.
    At a CLO level there are many high crimes being committed every day, it is not a matter of the staff do not know. They did training and hatting on what is what. BUT in today’s world STANDARD is no longer there – it is a SQUIRREL OPERATION.

    At an org level, there are good guys who somehow get things going and somehow get LRH tech implemented as far as it goes and as far as they can until they come to the attention of criminal execs. Criminals do not want anyone to become the best they can be, to gain in power or authority. Thus the life of an upstat is short lived. If there are any oldtimers around who know what they know, they too get attacked and neutralized. That keeps the criminals safe.
    At it’s heart is DM and his bosses the WOG Church of Spiritual Technology and its sellout minion DM

      • Yeah, nobody talks about it or it is instantly invalidated as conspiracy theories. The question is:
        Was Hitler alone or were there some people in the background ?
        How about DM ?

      • Hey Roger, from my research over the vast seas of the internet Ive come come across some interesting theories as to why DM was able to take control so effectively. The most plausible reason in my book is that he indeed did have powerful friends in high places. It all points back to the banking cartels or illuminate affiliated groups. Those people who had the most to loose should Scientology wake too many of the population up would be the main suspects. When they plainly could not outright destroy Scn overtly the next step was covert infiltration. It succeeded, at least on the surface. They took over with DM at its head, milking the cash cow( scientology parishoners). And in the form of a slave labour force they had the sea org. Slowly but surely DMs job has been to stall us and keep us busy while the tech has slowly been made less and less effective. Real OTs were not to be made, ever!

        Similar to the current US president Obama, DM must make the lies seem possible and believable. As long as there are enough idiots who forsake observation for feel good rhetoric, there will always be a position available for these con men! When this fails there is always the tried and tested terror tactics used so well by Nazis!

        So to reiterate the answer, yes DM had help from higher up and still does. But like Hitler he keeps trying to destroy himself and scientology. We couldve achieved so much without the likes of him.

      • “… who are running the CST lawyers?”
        Lawyers, probably, but who pays them?
        There is a history of infiltration by govt agents that date back to before the sea org. Now why would they do that?
        The sea org seems like it was originally set up to avoid being infiltrated. As per their actions and operating procedures, more and more, it looks like they were infiltrated.
        Is Davie smart enough to systematically dismantle the church all by himself? I think that he has a lot of help.
        This is really off topic, but it is worth putting on the back burner and think about it. (Good to know for future planning.)
        In the mean time, enjoy the season, and continue to help those who are just finding their freedom. S. Africa is at the tipping point, and there is nowhere to go but up.

    • I agree word for word. Well observed. Honest and intelligent people have a very hard time being on staff, as most of the execs above them are missing those qualities or under such heavy pressure that they forget about those.

    • Quench not, that summary was priceless! You nailed it with the shortest summary of the ACTUAL operation occuring in the church today! I guess laughing at it helps. Otherwise this pure insanity will swallow the happiest person into the bowels of dispair! I would liken it to being taught jungle survival techniques whereby some of the instructors get pissed off if you avoid getting eaten, poisoned or dying of some obscure disease! Its just that rediculous!

  2. Great story Craig! Those were some wild times for sure. I was there for some of that madness and I also know many of the stories you haven’t mentioned – all equally as crazy!

    I remember how dedicated you were in the Org and how much work you put into ensuring that the public were serviced whilst always working on getting in new public. In fact, what most people don’t know is the significant number of current Scientologists are people that you personally bought in. Even after your contract expired you were still in the org giving lectures, selling books and auditing public on Book one. The RCS has really lost one of the good ones here. It has become quite obvious that if you are upstat and got products you became enemy number 1 and everything was done to stop you. As evident by them covertly attacking the Snr C/S.

    The positive here is that we got out and in the end you got your declare on your terms. The relief on getting my declare has been immense. It was not easy, I lost all my best lifelong friends and had to split with my business partner – starting a new business fresh at the end of the year has been no easy task. Yet, I haven’t regretted a second of it, the true freedom you get from disconnecting from the Church is incredible. The future is looking bright and I feel that I can reach goals I couldn’t have before I was declared. I am fortunate enough to be working with Craig and have seen how much better things have become for him too.

    So thanks RCS, you did us one HUGE favour!

    • Well done, to you Craig, and the same to you, Cameron. I fully duplicate your experience, Craig; and the freedom once disconnected from RCS!

      I’m glad that Robert Bokkelman has been identified thus. I was on staff and he personally made it his business to see I had a most, terrible time – especially when upstat. I was always in trouble when upstat. I couldn’t understand how ‘everyone’ kept on and still keeps on ignoring the stats.

      He favoured one of the staff and they 2D-flowed one another. This was done while married to Peach. No one said or did anything about this. He hides behind charm and a well-modulated, calm, demeanour of authority (superiority). You have to give him his due, he’s an expert at getting his own way using this. He’d arrive at the org, bypassing everyone. The missions in those days did not practise Manners, showed little to no respect, even for the ED, or especially for the ED, behaved like arrogant royalty. I saw one of the SO missionaires screaming at the ED in front of the staff and public, calling him useless and stupid.

      Once when the org had won the B-Day Game in Africa, two weeks in a row, he arrived in the org and put everyone of the meter! At muster that evening, he told the staff that a win like this was an accident and he read us a reference. The org crashed, the ED crumbled and left post.

      One thing you may not know is how Robert 2D flowed young girls on recruitment cycles. In the ’90s, I had a friend whose young daughter, 14 years old or so, was recruited by Robert into the SO. The daughter had come home rosy-cheeked and starry-eyed. My friend went straight to confront him with her suspicion. I was surprised when she didn’t get attacked but actually got away with it and her daughter didn’t arrive in the SO.

      I remember so much of those years and marvel that I didn’t run then. I justified that life outside of the church was too horrible to contemplate therefore the horror of life inside the church must borne as it’s the only place where I could get Scientology. And so, you stayed.

      • Don’t like Robert Bokkleman one bit. The one time he spoke to me was trying to get money out of me, I am pretty tight with money and he was not getting anywhere, so he thought he would throw in an overt of mine! There is no way he could have known about it unless he looked in my file, of course he was talking in general terms but i am no idiot and knew immediately his plan. So I refuse to drop into propitiation and hand over money. My payback for that, never gave them another cent! I was later told by a staff member it is common to read our files. Pig of a man!

  3. Wow! this makes so much sense to me. About Robbie, during my experience with the Org, I was unable to get justice done. When the basics came out, Robbie presented me with a set stating that this was a small concialation for the shit I had gone through and it was his way of making amends to me.

      • I agree it’s 1.1. One day, at another org where I was now a public, he told me that he felt he should give me a Contact Assist on ____ Org except that the building was no longer there. He asked if he could do it in the org wherein we were standing. I declined. I couldn’t trust him even though he seemed sincere. He’s skilled at appearing so.

  4. What utter insanity! It could make a person develop Compulsive Exclamation Disorder!!!!!! The insanity is astonishing. Robert Bokkelman was one of the people who successfully recruited me to the SO in the early 90’S. I was there from Christmas eve to LRH birthday and had so many disagreements in those three months that I left. I was told to route out standardly by Berndt Mottl who was there on a mission, but because there was no-one who seemed to know what that entailed – I just left. I thought it was just a couple of idiots who were in senior positions who were stuffing it all up, but your story (and others before you) just show, time and time again, what lunacy goes on. And those children in CMO bossing everyone around……… just nuts. This is why the mentality of some never exceeds junior school. They are so busy being the “Secret Seven” (Enid Blyton novels for children) witch hunting for ghosts, goblins and ghouls, that they do not get on with life and living. What a load of crap!

    I see you also went from “SP” to Ethics Officer in the space of about one year – hahaha – they could not have been too serious about that first SP declare.

    Craig I must compliment you on your perseverance. You are a better person than me – that is for sure. And I really had a good laugh at your cartoon (love the knife in the back LOL). I trust all is well with you now and that life is good. It is better to be you at the bottom of the Bridge than to be in fear and out of valence at the top of the Bridge.Good for you!

  5. Thank you for sharing your story Craig.
    It was heartfelt and well written.
    I am sorry to tell you that identical scenarios, screaming messengers using thuggery, enforced Sec Checks and asking for crimes played out from 1973-1993 as well.
    This is nothing new. I was Sea Org most of that time and experienced all flows of what you write year in and year out.
    It is not true within the Church that “what is true for you is true for you.”
    What is required by the Church is obedience, even when it is not true for you.
    The Church is at War. It is daily warfare even against its own. Then it feign self-righteous indignation at any criticism and lashes out to find the *CRIMES*.
    Take a look at this short video called The Truth Rundown which has been run on staff (and now even public) since 1979.
    You will see things that “ring a bell.”

    • Thank you for the info – Karen #1.
      The original RPF did not contain such crazy stuff. It was done per LRH FO and was fairly quick. It worked well for some people but that was when, in my opinion, it was run in a benign – granting beingness way. It did not work and left some with a degraded feeling when implemented as punishment. In the punishment cases that I saw, the person learnt how to ‘get by’ so as to finish. We come again to squirrel actions and wrong results.
      Todays RPFs sound like the brainwashing camps in China and North Korea. Makes me wonder is DM is a psychopolitical agent who is implementing the overthrow of the potentials of Scientology so as to bring it under ‘worker (proletariat) control. ? Clearly the tech being used is not LRH but rather psychology … like Pavlov’s dogs.. you know ring a bell and the dog slavers.

      • You are not the only one, Quench not the Spirt, who sees a likeness to CIA methods of punishment and behaviour. I’m nearly convinced that DM is an agent for the Obama administration who is an agent for the Cabal. His methods are certainly similar! His thieving, his lies, his brutality, his paranoia – they’re the same.

        And WHERE IS OUR MONEY THAT’S BEEN DONATED TO THE IAS? Will we ever find out?

  6. You couldnt make this stuff up, any of it!! Yet another tale of mayhem and good intentions thwarted by the likes of corporate scientology!

    Craig I hope you find indie scientology, that is if you arent permamently jaded by all of the utter crap no-sense you were subjected to!

    As to not being an angel Im sure every mistake or OW was used against you to in full!

    Well done for coming out with your
    head held high! I think you beat the odds against walking out a gibbering nutcase with all the suppression and inval you mustve received! Must feel almost Nelson Mandelarish in a way

    • Hey SB, thanks for your comments. I actually think these events were necessary for my education. I was so naive to start with but now I have a good first hand understanding as to how the world is being run. I never realised that I could be perceived as being that dangerous 🙂

      Anyway I know that LRH’s tech works and I’m still loyal to LRH and will continue to avail myself of the real data.

      • Haha, Craig thats so true about being perceived as so dangerous! In my first comm ev done banana republic style, blew me away! The amount of effort that went into my smear campain, the rumour line, the KR’s, the trawling of my pc folders for incriminating data to systematically destroy me. It was so fantastic and unreal I almost believed I was Lucifer himself! Ultimately I too was being punished for daring to leave!

        Those of us who have a large purpose to help and have good stats to back it up are annihilated if we dare to leave violating the rights of a thetan, “to play or not play a game” as per own choice. Our own desire to assist others used against us perpetually! What a trap, made cunningly by those who know how to use the tech in reverse!

        Rather sick. But there it is. Now wheres my explosives so I can blow up central headquarters LOLS!!

  7. Same shit went on in German Orgs …. one thinks that it is just the own org where madness is going on. Then you read in the internet that it takes place in almost every org in every country … and then you get a cognition: “wait a minute. Every other org has the same problems and is also not expanding like mad? … lol … but that means …. oh …”
    And then it is up to you what you do with that newly gained knowledge 😉

  8. Hit the nail on the head Craig,

    “I would rather die being me, at the bottom of the Bridge, than be a coward going OT in fear and ignorance”

  9. Thank you for sharing with us. We have all seen the madness, all over the place, over the years but were afraid to communicate about it.
    Whenever I dared say anything I was ridiculed and Sec-Checked at my expense at Flag to exhaustion.
    It’s good to be free and out. It’s great that we can share and talk about these things.
    Well done to you all, my South African friends, for what you’re doing.

    • Thanks for your story Craig, wow it sure was a roller coaster ride on staff. The funny thing is that as far as I understand you got declared for nothing, just out of the blue…. No comm, no evidence just a bolt out of nowhere. Oh well it is now considered a badge of honor so wear it proudly. They are obviously afraid of you and what you know of the madness.
      Ernest and Gaye

  10. OMG the madness is so true!
    In between the reporting of the psychotic behavior you actually put
    a smile on my face!
    It’s so good to laugh!
    Contagion of aberration filters down from the top!
    You can certainly wear your Special Person Badge with honor!

  11. Hi Craig. Thanks very much for sharing your story with us. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it, but didn’t thoroughly enjoy what you have been through. And thank-you for all you HAVE done for LRH and SCN – you are a hero.

    This is so important – sharing our experiences and being able to communicate freely without fear of being annihilated.

    Also, the sharing of these stories helps others out there who are teetering on the edge – having seen this kind of thing happening, or even been victim to it themselves, but feeling very isolated and not sure what to do about it. That is why this blog and others like it are so important.

    I have had many comm cycles with people who are starting to wake up – they thought they were the only ones, and went through personal hell for a long time, even suffering self-imposed ethics bashing for feeling like traitors to the group. Then they start looking – and, oh boy……

    So to Craig and all others who have had the courage to speak up, I salute you.

    Love BP

  12. “You have overts!” is the favorite war cry of this organization. It’s the easiest and most over used statement uttered throughout the church. The vast majority of people who walk through the doosr of Orgs. are decent (If sometimes PTS) folks who have arrived with good hearts just looking for some help.

    The drawing is great! Isn’t that sword plunged into the back of that poor fellow the same model the IAS horseman are always waving around?

    Thanks Craig for this terrific write-up.

  13. Dear Craig,

    Thanks for your story. If I were to tell mine, it would have so many parallels that it could practically be in the same org, except that my story takes place on the other side of the planet from you. The same off-policy insanities committed to handle rent or meet some impossible management-driven target, the same CMO children yelling obscenities and carefully trained not to think beyond “Command Intention”, the same arbitrary orders and oddball priorities entering into org situations and disrupting every attempt to just do the usual and get on with it. The common denominator of all of this, of course, is that Church management is doing anything but managing. Instead, it is flat-out harassment and interference at every turn. And make no mistake, this comes from the very top and is pushed down hard. All the mistakes, pressure and enturbulation are clear-cut indicators of violent PTSness. And the source of that PTSness is David Miscavige and his minions.

    Were it not for the dedication of the rank-and-file staff to LRH and their dream of achieving the aims of Scientology, Scientology would long ago have died a very grisly death at the hands of these untrained and robotic management staff. I wonder how much longer that dedication is going to last in the face of this outright suppression.

  14. Wow! Thanks Craig. I really really enjoyed that story. So many times I had to get a “withhold pulled” on these specific terminals as I was being critical of them. Some time ago I was at Flag and saw Robert Bokkelman there. He found me hiding in a car park having an “unscheduled break” with a cigarette. He admitted that the only reason he found me was because he’s also trying to hide. He laughed about the South Africans picking the same hiding places. I think he’s almost done with this game. I hope so for his sake.

    • Yep because you were naming “good hats”, when they were madmen strategically placed. RB won’t ever be done with this game, he’s a gonner, regardless of how “convincing” his little act was in the car park.

  15. Interesting story. I am glad that you are out of that madhouse.
    I have been on staff before so I know about this kind of insanity.
    Having been out of the cult now for about 4 years , hearing all that stuff again sounds like true insanity. It reminds me of LRH saying something about the inmates running the asylum.
    It is flabbergasting to me now the degree of “reasonableness” of good people. There seems to be a mix of criminals and nuts sprinkled with a few decent people who want to do good but are overwhelmed by the nuts and crims. Then the good guys become so reasonable and rationalize all the insanity that they end up contributing to it. I concluded many years ago that the only way to build an Org would be to be independent of upper management and have the leader totally autonomous. Literally 20 years earlier in my 30+ year career as a Scientologists I thought “why can’t these Orgs build themselves up??!!”. It was maddening to watch this kind of thing happen for YEARS and it is still happening now, maybe worse.
    I believe the “why” for the current scene in Scientology is something like: The leader of Scientology is an SP/Merchant of chaos (boy do they spread chaos) and it’s upper management has become PTS and criminalized. This criminality has been flowing down the “management” command channels for years unchecked by anyone and now has become mainstream.

    • The leader of Scientology is an SP/Merchant of chaos (boy do they spread chaos) and it’s upper management has become PTS and criminalized. This criminality has been flowing down the “management” command channels for years unchecked by anyone and now has become mainstream.

      Exactly my thoughts, Tony. I think what we’re witnessing is contagion of aberration on a grand scale. I think the entire Sea Org is now solidly dramatizing DM’s valence/case, right down to the Class V org level.

      Folks ask, “why don’t the rest of the churchies just leave?” Well, they’re PTS as hell to an anti-social personality that is coming at them from every robot staff member they meet.

  16. Wow Craig
    I have allways wondered what happened to DBN org from it’s Westville Days, you never mentioned it any time I saw you. Many thanks for the data

  17. Hi, Craig, thanks for sharing with us…your experiences certainly provide insight into the workings of the church. You mentioned that at times your stats were very high. This was despite the suppression. I can only imagine what could be achieved by dedicated, well intentioned individuals such as yourself without the suppression. Once again, thanks for sharing…and congrats on your badge of honour…

  18. Can someone provide me with a little background about who Craig is to the South African Field? He is obviously an important person and this would help me duplicate the magnitude of the fuck up by the cob.

  19. Craig, thanks so much, for filling in a tremendous chunk of your personal travails, and how you tried so diligently to do “the ethical & proper thing,” in the face of what eventually revealed itself as the maniacal ravings of a lunatic asylum, and its equally insane management!

    As a former shopfitting designer, then turned specialist architectural illustrator, doing perspective impressions for client reality, i had the opportunity of working with a number of architects. I was in awe of the breadth of detail sought, and manifested, through the discipline, creativie application and understanding of both the physical sciences and the the entire spectrum of economics, engineering, ergonomics, aethetics, and psychology. A truly all encompassing profession, focusing on the ‘optimum solution’ in solving problems.

    The moniker, “Church of $cientology,” (DM version), IMHO, is the anathema to your (former?) profession. Nothing was / IS more guaranteed to FAIL, than this commandeered, twisting of a truly workable philosophy/ technology, into a meticulously concealed, loot-extracting, mind control Ponzi Scheme, with no precedent!


    Superb job done, in the dignified way you have acquitted yourself Craig! You are a shining example of how it can be done man! I was fortunate to have been around from the earlier 70’s, (Gaye & Ernest Corbett’s beginning), At a time when ethics were ‘mild’, the ‘Bridge, more affordable, and the results and wins grew exponentially with enthusiasm. The original, workable stuff, RE-available today, in the ‘splinter grouping’ rebirth of Independent Scns.

    Kudo’s to all for standing tall / or even for quietly supporting, in the wings!

    Merry Christmas, and be sure to spread the cheer of being free & happi /er, far & wide!

    ML, Calvin & Dorothy Duffield, (first NED Class V – Durban.)

  20. Hi Craig, thanks for your story, most revealing as I was there in those days and remember the org really doing well, it was a great place to be with a great vibe, I was personally doing well as was my wife and really moving up the bridge and enjoying it. I could never work out why the Durban org and public where so heavily attacked by various SO terminals at a time when our org was doing so well??? I was also personally hammered by these guys and could never figure it out because at the time I was flying on my grades and feeling on top of the world.

    So thanks for your story it has revealed a lot for me and things that have happened subsequent to those days.

  21. Thank you for the well written story. I now worry that the management of the church is definitely not practicing the tech. Real squirrels are right there on the top of the org board.

  22. Phew Craig! I was exhausted just reading this account and all those acronyms! You have been trying to swim in shark-infested alphabet soup for years! Now dry yourself off, pick out the last E and D from your IAS and just LIVE! It’s wonderful out here!
    I wish you every success and happiness

  23. Craig, thank you so much for this no holds barred, no bullshit story – not everyone realises how much it takes to do this and stories like these are so, so valuable in exposing what the state of degradation is like inside. I found yours to really give an excellent insight into how far off the purpose of a spiritual path Corporate Scientology has gone.

    FYI: Robert Bokelmann had a direct line to Miscavige, and was running several black ops off the books, that not even the top people in South Africa knew about, including Ken Krieger and Ryan Hogarth (who was still in at that time – 2008). I know about one of them, and I may tell that story some time.

    • Thank you phoenix, I really appreciate your words.

      That is very interesting about Bokkelman. I always had a suspicion that he was in some way connected to someone, but not knowing at the time that this stuff went all the way to the top, I was stumped.

      I would very much love to know what his black ops orders were. I spent a lot of energy trying to thwart his evil plans. If the data is not for this blog you can get my email from Ryan. But I’ll bet Ryan would love to know this stuff too.

      • Hi Craig – you are most welcome, and thank you again.

        Re Robert Bokelmann – yes, I shared that as I felt it would help you understand better why you were up against such an unwinnable situation with him.

        Given the season, do not want to elaborate further on the blog yet, but you are most welcome to contact me through the admins of this blog, who have my e-mail address – would be happy to give you more data.

        All the very best to you, and may you flourish and prosper!

      • You have all our attention now Phoenix! Your knowledge in this matter shared may further increase our responsibility, control and wrest yet more power away from the church ultimately! Come, share with us please. We have all suffered alike under RCS tyranny. Shine a light into dark places so that we too may confront what lies beneath.

  24. I would just like to thank everyone on this thread, for their words of appreciation, support and honesty. I am glad I could shed some light on some of the inner workings of the church and also help some of us to realise that we we’re not going mad after all, or in a treason condition for time on staff or in the public realm.
    Seasons greetings to you all

  25. Thank you Craig. Having watched my org flounder and flounder and flounder despite the activities of hard working, virtually non-paid staff, your story resonates within me. Thank you for writing it!

  26. Craig,reading your post was illuminating and handled some items for me..Thank you!.Here is a small bit of consolation….A very simple way to handle Rob was to reverse flow him…sell HIM something.I did,yup no b/s,while he was in the SO nogal,poor bugger didnt have a clue how to handle the flow.. and never had a moments trouble from him ever…well ,not directly anyway it seems!Be “interesting” to see him again….
    Rock on Dude.

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