By Morris Adams
First I want to give you some background on my own entry into Scientology, more than 40 years ago. I am intentionally leaving out the actual locations I was in and the names of my auditors and associates.
I heard about Scientology from a colleague of mine where I was working. I was very interested immediately. I had been actively looking for answers to my “problems” for years, via reading, psychotherapy and religion. The initial promo piece my friend gave me – written by Ed Lefson and Ruth Minshull – really hit my reality and I got very excited. I read DMSMH immediately and then went down to the local Mission.
I did a couple of intro courses and then signed up for professional auditing. It was the time of Quickie Grades (many of you may never have heard of this). Grades 0 and 1 went by in a flash with nothing at all happening. But on Grade 2 I got a different auditor (she has dropped her body since) who was not into Quickying. In less than half an hour I brought up and discharged most of the things I had been talking to psychotherapists about for years. As the session progressed, I got off more and more charge and the auditor just kept running the process. I felt waves of electrical charge coming off my body and started laughing (line-charging) more and more uncontrollably. I had never experienced anything remotely like this. “What have you done?” and ack my answer. “ What have you withheld?” and ack my answer. But it wasn’t overts I was getting off then, even though it was a Grade 2 process. It was embarrassing moments in my life – things I was too embarrassed to talk openly about. It was really Life Repair, since I hadn’t gotten any of the lower grades or anything else before it, and didn’t even really know what an overt was.
After the session ended I continued to line charge for 15 minutes or more. And when I would stop laughing I just had to look at someone else and I would start laughing again. The material of five plus years of psychotherapy was all blown in less than 30 minutes. It was a fantastic release!
After this I knew with complete certainty that Scientology worked. There was no possible way that anyone could convince me otherwise. Those of you who have had similar wins know what I mean. It is really almost impossible to express in words.
For days after this I would wake up in the morning and immediately think: “Is this really real? Is it possible? Is it really here? I can’t believe it! But it happened! It is real!” I was on an incredible high for weeks.
So this is how I became a Scientologist and it was this single win that kept me going for the next 40 years. I never did have another win to match this one, solely because of out-tech – the incorrect application of Scientology technology. I could definitely talk reams about this. I definitely had more wins from auditing, but not of the magnitude of this initial session.
There are those of you who know what I am talking about, to whom this is very real. And I know there are those who will read this and NOT know what I am talking about. And some who read this will have their own opinions about what happened to me or about some other aspect of my personality.
But after this, it didn’t matter to me what LRH might have done or not done. There was nothing – and is nothing – that could change my high regard for him and my gratitude to him for what he has done. Nothing. In my mind he is absolved of all sins he has ever committed or will commit. Again only people that have had similar wins to mine will really understand this.
And others who have not, will not really understand. It is a personal thing and no amount of writing or talking can really convince someone else or show someone else, or make someone else “believe” that it works, or provide “objective proof” that it works. It is only one’s own experience that can convince a person.
(Actually there are some people – undoubtedly below “Need of Change” on the Awareness scale – who don’t become Scientologists even when the tech works on them. I gave a touch assist once to a girl and blew her headache, which was a pretty bad one. And she never became curious as to what had just happened to her. And some other people out in the world – contact assist, assist for the loss of a person [her boyfriend had just left her], cold assist – where the assist worked very well, as expressed by the person getting it. But they never expressed any further curiosity or interest in what had just happened to them. Not bad people at all, but their awareness was not up to seeing what had happened. Hard to believe, but that is the reality of awareness levels).
So that is the beginning of my story. And that is one answer to the question: What is a real Scientologist these days? It is someone who has certainty that Scientology tech works, and knows that Scientology tech can help him or her, and knows Scientology tech can help others.
More to come.